It was holiday and I went to La Union to Surf, but not just to Surf but to meet with an old friend for a reconciliation.
4 hours I was in the bus station, thinking If I would still go or should I just come back home and spend the long weekend with my family. But then again, I won, I waited for four long hours for the bus to arrive and I rode the bus to La Union.
I arrived LU at 8am and I was nowhere. Hotels are fully booked, I don't know where to stay. Not until one local friend approached me and asked me if I want to join them to surf in Jesus point. Without a doubt, I left my things inside the room he recommended for me to stay and joined them. 2 hours I went out in the rain to surf, paddled out, while in the ocean, I temporarily forgot all the things that were bothering me and I just really enjoyed the moment.
After the sesh, everything was dawning on me, I know anytime he will text me or call me and ask me where I am and where we should meet. I was excited and thrilled at the same time. I will see him after how many weeks of silence with him. I went back to the room looked into my phone and I saw a text message from him.
He cannot make it.
Yes, he talksh*tted me! I was so angry and I cannot understand why should this happen to me. I was ready to forgive him but all of a sudden he will tell me he cannot come to see me. I was quiet to myself from that moment on. I am asking God, why???? I was asking God, why is He letting this happen to me. All night I was alone, I was lonely. I am talking to no one but myself. I drank beer alone, I stargazed alone. I spent the night alone.
But... I was not really alone.
While I was looking at the night sky, I heard someone spoke to my ears and told me that "It's God's will he is not here with you". I believe it was Jesus. Just like a blink of an eye, I realized that God always win. With all his plans for me, this is a part of it. He wants to protect me, He doesn't want to hurt me and put me into a situation that will danger me. My heart melted and almost cried. Everything flashes back, I remember myself praying to God that If I am not ready to see this guy, please don't let him come.
God is Good! He just answered my prayer!!! I was so stubborn but still, God loves me.
God changed my heart from a bitter person to a thankful one. I realized that I have to trust God in all his plans for me. Even if it hurts me, He will still do it for my own sake, because it is His will. I was so excited to wake up the next day. I was so excited to walk along the beach, feel the ocean breeze, drink coffee and eat my breakfast and to surf all day without any worries. I enjoyed my time alone. My time with God. How he touched me, and how he taught me to trust Him.
Yes it was the longest weekend of my life. A life-changing weekend. It is not Me vs. God anymore, but Me and God forever.
4 hours I was in the bus station, thinking If I would still go or should I just come back home and spend the long weekend with my family. But then again, I won, I waited for four long hours for the bus to arrive and I rode the bus to La Union.
I arrived LU at 8am and I was nowhere. Hotels are fully booked, I don't know where to stay. Not until one local friend approached me and asked me if I want to join them to surf in Jesus point. Without a doubt, I left my things inside the room he recommended for me to stay and joined them. 2 hours I went out in the rain to surf, paddled out, while in the ocean, I temporarily forgot all the things that were bothering me and I just really enjoyed the moment.
After the sesh, everything was dawning on me, I know anytime he will text me or call me and ask me where I am and where we should meet. I was excited and thrilled at the same time. I will see him after how many weeks of silence with him. I went back to the room looked into my phone and I saw a text message from him.
He cannot make it.
Yes, he talksh*tted me! I was so angry and I cannot understand why should this happen to me. I was ready to forgive him but all of a sudden he will tell me he cannot come to see me. I was quiet to myself from that moment on. I am asking God, why???? I was asking God, why is He letting this happen to me. All night I was alone, I was lonely. I am talking to no one but myself. I drank beer alone, I stargazed alone. I spent the night alone.
But... I was not really alone.
While I was looking at the night sky, I heard someone spoke to my ears and told me that "It's God's will he is not here with you". I believe it was Jesus. Just like a blink of an eye, I realized that God always win. With all his plans for me, this is a part of it. He wants to protect me, He doesn't want to hurt me and put me into a situation that will danger me. My heart melted and almost cried. Everything flashes back, I remember myself praying to God that If I am not ready to see this guy, please don't let him come.
God is Good! He just answered my prayer!!! I was so stubborn but still, God loves me.
God changed my heart from a bitter person to a thankful one. I realized that I have to trust God in all his plans for me. Even if it hurts me, He will still do it for my own sake, because it is His will. I was so excited to wake up the next day. I was so excited to walk along the beach, feel the ocean breeze, drink coffee and eat my breakfast and to surf all day without any worries. I enjoyed my time alone. My time with God. How he touched me, and how he taught me to trust Him.
Yes it was the longest weekend of my life. A life-changing weekend. It is not Me vs. God anymore, but Me and God forever.